in the hole

sometimes we have to dig deep to make it through. i don't think it's too bad if it's a one-time event. but sustained digging deep? that's a different story. especially when it involves people. people whose roles have changed in your life, but they still linger because they have to. sometimes i, like many, wish that i could 86 "have to". but then, i guess i wouldn't have situations in which i needed to dig deep and learn what i am supposed to. ok, i change my wish then. i wish other people could dig deep when it involves me. dig deep to do the right thing. be moral & have integrity when they don't want to. cause...i'm tired of doing all the *blasted* digging.