deja vu

it's been about 3 years since i felt this way. i didn't think i was ever going to feel this way again. i guess that was pretty naive of me. i want the tears to burst but they're not ready. i don't know why they wouldn't be ready...i feel low enough. kai-doggie senses the rock bottom. and like 3 years ago, she's cuddled up next to me. how comforting constant is...especially from the same presence.