3 drops

Three days of school left. Luckily that's how many drops of blood I've got left in me. What a year. Came in roaring and its ending in a similar fashion. I'd like to take 2011-2012 and put it in a box, lock it up and toss it into the Pacific. But wait, I don't have access to the Pacific anymore. And saying, "I'm gonna lock it up and toss in the lake just 5 miles from my house" just doesn't do the act of wanting to move past this year any justice. I know I'm supposed to learn lessons having gone through the struggles and trials I've encountered this year. I just haven't gotten any perspective yet. The wounds are still fresh, my emotions are still running high, and I am just completely spent in every way. I feel like a washcloth that has dried out in a wrung position. The wringing had been taking place all school year and had not let up. Not even when there are only 3 drops left.

2012

well happy new year! in the middle of a much needed 3-day weekend. spent yesterday grading a bunch of papers while tay and cody were out with aunty meredith (thanks a bunch aunty mere!). the start to the new year has been slightly rough, hoping that in june things will start to turn around. well, in chucky's case, earlier. he is destined to be in the office, where his passion and talents are able to flow freely and with purpose. although he enjoys parts of his current position, i'm sure it's tough to feel "caged" in a situation that you aren't doing something that truly makes your heart sing. my fingers are crossed that *something* happens this spring.

was looking at old pictures of kai last night. i still think of her at least twice a day. i love that dog. and while i was looking  at some old photos, my heart smiled. and i feel so blessed to have had time with her and at peace that she is happy and vigorous in heaven.