peace and quiet

ahhh....forgot what it is like. love that all i hear is the striking of the computer keys and the hum of my computer. no noggin playing in the background or tay screeching that she has to go potty because she waited too long (she's at daycare). even kai's asleep on the floor breathing so soundly. the last 4 months have been so "noisy", literally and metaphorically. and even if this quiet sound and feeling only lasts a few more minutes, i am so thankful for a pause this morning because i really needed it. my struggles these last months have taken so much energy and will. so much thought and tears behind closed doors. so much patience and understanding of others. so much pretending. i am exhausted and relieved that summer vacation is upon me.